So I had orientation today. I don't feel like it was a real first day since I wasn't sitting at a desk or anything.
Money is a big concern. I'm very worried. I get paid next friday...but the check isn't even coming to me. It's probably better that way since my parents can probably deposit it into my PNC account faster than I would be able to.
I bought a few shirts today from old navy. I ironed one on too high a setting (it has spandex in it) and it burnt. so mad...especially since I have no money to be wasting on burnt shirts.
Vevek told me he wants to meet Nik. He also asked if we're going to get married.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Days are short...
So I'm sitting in my bed realizing that this is the exact position I was in 12 hours ago. The days are a lot shorter when there's nothing to do and nothing to stress me out...and when I sleep til noon. I guess I'm glad...because it means that I'll be back where I belong in no time. :}
Plans for tomorrow: bake chocolate chip cookies, mail chocolate chip cookies, (maybe) shop for a graduation present for Dan, go to Dan's graduation party, work on my SEO online training, some other stuff...
Plans for tomorrow: bake chocolate chip cookies, mail chocolate chip cookies, (maybe) shop for a graduation present for Dan, go to Dan's graduation party, work on my SEO online training, some other stuff...
Friday, May 13, 2005
Sad
No goodnight phone call.
I can't spend the next year plus some waiting for a goodnight. Not that I won't...but I shouldn't allow it to consume me the way it does.
I can't spend the next year plus some waiting for a goodnight. Not that I won't...but I shouldn't allow it to consume me the way it does.
Clippership
Last night was interesting. Just to remind myself, here are the things I plan to talk about: Jess on my relationship, Liz's sweater, cj being crazy, my dream
I dreamt Nik was still here with me. I dreamt he was laying in bed and telling me how in love he is with me. I was happy. I miss him so much. I got that warm happy feeling inside when I saw his name on a receipt in my room. A receipt! How ridiculous am I?
Speaking of ridiculous...cj was crazy last night. I do feel bad for having ruined his night or whatever. I passed him on the way to the bus, he acknowledged my existence. Then he and his crew got on the same bus as us and he sat right behind me! If my presence bothers you that much, why the hell would you sit right behind me? I was told he interrogated Caryl as to what I was doing there, why she brought me (she didn't, Laura/Jess did), etc etc. Then I was able to avoid him til I got on the dance floor. My sisters happened to be dancing near him. He seemed to be having a good time and I was hoping he wouldn't notice me. Emili danced with him...and since she's one of his dream girls I figured everything was ok. Too bad she's a dance floor slut...haha. I saw them once more on the dance floor. Laura later came up to me and said in a panicked voice "you should really stay as far away from cj as possible." She explained that she said hi to cj and he flipped out on her. I apologized to Adam...hoping he could smooth things over later and he agreed that I should just stay away from him. It's not like I was seeking him out, the darn boat is only so big. I'm sorry. Oh well. I saw him once more on the boat: I was coming down the stairs and he was outside talking to Emili. He looked in the window and saw me and turned around and punched the air. After getting off the boat, I saw Adam again as we were checking out pictures and he didn't have the money for his so I offered to buy it for him. cj saw me talking to Adam and gave us really dirty looks. I wish it wasn't this way. I wish I hadn't just wasted all these keystrokes on this bull.
So Liz left her purse (Coach, mind you) on a table under her pink sweater as we ran around the boat. We went to go check on her stuff later and her sweater was missing. Not the coach purse, not the cash, not the credit cards, but her sweater. We decided to keep an eye out for it and continue laughing at the idiot who would steal a sweater but not money (must've been a very cold thief). We were on the top floor when we spotted a couple and the girl was wearing the sweater. We all moved over to the railing next to them and giggled and tried to figure out if the sweater she was wearing was 3/4 length like Liz's. Indeed it was. So Jess (being the most drunk of all of us...) tried to get the girl's attention; she ignored us. We were trying to figure out what to do when I saw Mulligan. I was like "hey Mulligan, come here! we really need you." So Mulligan comes over and I explain the story to her and tell her she needs to figure out if this is Liz's sweater. So Mulligan gets her facts straight ("who's the girl with the sweater? Liz? You're Liz? Theresa's roommate? Who are you? And that's the girl right there?" etc). Mulligan walks over to the chick, physically turns her half around, punches her and starts pulling the sweater off. She hands it to Liz and asks if it's hers. It is. The girl starts explaining that she found the sweater on her chair and didn't want to just leave it, blah blah blah. It turns out Mulligan is good friends with the cold thief chick and that's why all the violence took place. We thought it was hilarious.
Finally, I was kinda pissed when a drunk Jess started lecturing to me about my relationship. Yes, I did kinda ask her what she thought of me and Nik but I expected a "you guys are cute" or something like that. She accused me of always needing a guy. She asked when the last time I didn't have a boyfriend was. I told her fall of freshmen year and she said "yeah, a whole two weeks." I don't know why I let her get to me, but I did. Maybe I'm just sensitive about my relationship. I know there are a lot of critics but I know that my heart doesn't care and I know I did the right thing. It's just hard to deal with...but I guess I'd rather have honest friends than not. I'm also glad she was drunk and didn't notice when I started talking to someone else in the middle of her rant.
I dreamt Nik was still here with me. I dreamt he was laying in bed and telling me how in love he is with me. I was happy. I miss him so much. I got that warm happy feeling inside when I saw his name on a receipt in my room. A receipt! How ridiculous am I?
Speaking of ridiculous...cj was crazy last night. I do feel bad for having ruined his night or whatever. I passed him on the way to the bus, he acknowledged my existence. Then he and his crew got on the same bus as us and he sat right behind me! If my presence bothers you that much, why the hell would you sit right behind me? I was told he interrogated Caryl as to what I was doing there, why she brought me (she didn't, Laura/Jess did), etc etc. Then I was able to avoid him til I got on the dance floor. My sisters happened to be dancing near him. He seemed to be having a good time and I was hoping he wouldn't notice me. Emili danced with him...and since she's one of his dream girls I figured everything was ok. Too bad she's a dance floor slut...haha. I saw them once more on the dance floor. Laura later came up to me and said in a panicked voice "you should really stay as far away from cj as possible." She explained that she said hi to cj and he flipped out on her. I apologized to Adam...hoping he could smooth things over later and he agreed that I should just stay away from him. It's not like I was seeking him out, the darn boat is only so big. I'm sorry. Oh well. I saw him once more on the boat: I was coming down the stairs and he was outside talking to Emili. He looked in the window and saw me and turned around and punched the air. After getting off the boat, I saw Adam again as we were checking out pictures and he didn't have the money for his so I offered to buy it for him. cj saw me talking to Adam and gave us really dirty looks. I wish it wasn't this way. I wish I hadn't just wasted all these keystrokes on this bull.
So Liz left her purse (Coach, mind you) on a table under her pink sweater as we ran around the boat. We went to go check on her stuff later and her sweater was missing. Not the coach purse, not the cash, not the credit cards, but her sweater. We decided to keep an eye out for it and continue laughing at the idiot who would steal a sweater but not money (must've been a very cold thief). We were on the top floor when we spotted a couple and the girl was wearing the sweater. We all moved over to the railing next to them and giggled and tried to figure out if the sweater she was wearing was 3/4 length like Liz's. Indeed it was. So Jess (being the most drunk of all of us...) tried to get the girl's attention; she ignored us. We were trying to figure out what to do when I saw Mulligan. I was like "hey Mulligan, come here! we really need you." So Mulligan comes over and I explain the story to her and tell her she needs to figure out if this is Liz's sweater. So Mulligan gets her facts straight ("who's the girl with the sweater? Liz? You're Liz? Theresa's roommate? Who are you? And that's the girl right there?" etc). Mulligan walks over to the chick, physically turns her half around, punches her and starts pulling the sweater off. She hands it to Liz and asks if it's hers. It is. The girl starts explaining that she found the sweater on her chair and didn't want to just leave it, blah blah blah. It turns out Mulligan is good friends with the cold thief chick and that's why all the violence took place. We thought it was hilarious.
Finally, I was kinda pissed when a drunk Jess started lecturing to me about my relationship. Yes, I did kinda ask her what she thought of me and Nik but I expected a "you guys are cute" or something like that. She accused me of always needing a guy. She asked when the last time I didn't have a boyfriend was. I told her fall of freshmen year and she said "yeah, a whole two weeks." I don't know why I let her get to me, but I did. Maybe I'm just sensitive about my relationship. I know there are a lot of critics but I know that my heart doesn't care and I know I did the right thing. It's just hard to deal with...but I guess I'd rather have honest friends than not. I'm also glad she was drunk and didn't notice when I started talking to someone else in the middle of her rant.
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